Journals of Lord Malinov

the poetry of madness

monsters

There are few things in this world uglier than anger, hatred and bitterness.  These forces work through our souls as time goes by.  It is essential that we let go of these feelings as soon as we can.  They are destructive forces and will disintegrate our being if retained.

Avoid angry people.  Avoid hateful people.  Avoid bitter people.  Keep an eye on them.  They can become dangerous.  Do not breathe their air.  Negativity is highly contagious.

The pizza girl seems delighted with our positions - I can only flirt with her by buying dinner and she can always retreat with a giggle into the kitchen.  She knows how much I like her and knows I am stuck.  How can I press her buttons if she keeps them out of reach?

The simplest solution would be to start pressing someone else's buttons where she can see, providing some vicarious button pushes.  The proximity of her rather adorable younger sister makes that someone else a simple choice.  A few words would suffice to excite the girl.  The pizza girl would have to react to this sudden shifting current.

I'm not sold on the strategy, but unless I can think of something else, I may give it a go.  I don't want to create a portrayal where I am a total blackguard, although I have definitely decided that presenting myself as a goodly prince charming will never work. 

I am also wary of corrupting innocents.  I'm not fond of hemlock, even as a mixer.  I have done my share of corruption - more than my share, if all is said - but that is an aspect that does not make me proud.  Showing people the ways of sin is not my chosen role.  I fancy myself more of a tour-guide, once they've crossed the frontier. 

I've had to chase away good girls since I became an adult.  My good provider skills have always made me a target for the happily-ever-after dreamers.  I'm not looking for the whore of Babylon, but I cannot work with foolish idealism.  Only the jaded need apply.

Our excursions into the Clay Pit have become interesting.  As we have become familiar with the staff, we have started hanging around in the bar after dinner, even if we ate dinner somewhere else.  Cats has been flirting with the bartenders, creating some interesting dynamics as they are forced to re-evaluate our relationship.  One of the sisters who run the establishment is driving me crazy with her cuteness.  She has well over-shadowed the wait staff, especially since my favorites have all gone missing lately.  Pursuing several souls within a single environment is very tricky.  Success with one can quickly spell defeat with another, so every step must be carefully considered.  Or not.

I have come to realize that with the proper self-image and confidence, I will be entering the society of Texan elite.  There isn't a single IP attorney in the state who can match my credentials and experience.  I can help anyone I associate myself with and I can just as easily cause trouble for any competitor.  I can create and I can destroy, all behind wizard curtains.  But I must steel myself before I enter this fray.  If I make myself a king, I must be prepared to defend my throne.  My strength will be tested at every turn.

another day, another centime

M

posted by: Malinov at 07:24 | link | comments (1) |

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#1  18 July 2006 - 10:29

 

Re: Negative people, wise words. I lived w/one for years and still getting over it. Somehow it's easier for them to infect you than for you to inject them with positive-ness.

Really great post. Gave me lots of smiles.

jennybird

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