Journals of Lord Malinov

the poetry of madness

sweet melody

the sweetest melody
is an unheard refrain

I'm a fan of the romantic poets and no one reaches the sublime heights like Keats.  Beauty is truth.

My documentary obsession has bled over into true crime analysis shows.  I'm fascinated by the incredible dissatisfaction that arises when justice is not served and elation that follows a proper sentence for some evil villain.  These feelings have an evolutionary root - people who find joy in justice have a selective advantage over those who feel neutral to the situation.  Are these feelings somehow related to the pleasure of musical resolution? 

I read yesterday that the joy of discovery is related to opiate responses.  Perhaps, then, musical resolution is related to the opiate responses.

There is an unpleasant ugliness when people convicted without doubt continue to insist on their innocence.  As much, the need to blame epitomizes the foulest aspects of humanity.  Our enslavement to fear.

"anger is a great motivator"  This, I believe, is the real purpose of anger.  Not for lashing out, but for demanding action.

What do we do when someone is wrong but is adamant that they are right?

Accept that other people's thoughts are beyond our control.

The desire to control is a manifestation of our enslavement to fear.

The eX is going to take the kids to dinner and a movie tonight, which is especially nice as an example of our new ability to work together smoothly.  I want to write her a letter - three years of non-communication need expression - but I don't want to loft any shots that may disrupt our peace.  I can write carefully, but it is difficult to recognize buttons and triggers she may have developed in the cold war.  I will tread lightly, if I tread at all.

Life is so much fun.

lower your sights and raise your aim

M

posted by: Malinov at 07:25 | link | comments (4) |
petting the cat, tales of passing time

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#1  22 June 2006 - 13:52

 

I agree completely that "the desire to control is a manifestation of our enslavement to fear." I've found that by setting my own fears and negative messages aside (as often and deliberately as I'm able), I gain confidence in my own skin and strength to live my own choices. Fear can drive so many powerful forces: control, jealousy, self-absorption, anger, domination, submission, passion, cowardice.... but it can't drive love or bravery.

Release the fear; embrace change as a positive force. Dare to believe in whatever you believe, and then make it so.

ladyplume

#2  22 June 2006 - 17:30

 

amen, sister, amen

Malinov

#3  23 June 2006 - 01:22

 

Lord Malinov, I started reading your writing with a thought to respond. Then I just decided to let it sink in. And listen.

I love it. It's delicious. You fed my soul tonight.

jennybird

#4  23 June 2006 - 15:19

 

"the earth laughs in flowers" Ralph Waldo Emerson

let a woman read the letter first.
it might save your soul. lol!

faaraa

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