Journals of Lord Malinov

the poetry of madness

motions

Relaxation cannot remain motionless.  The involuntary motions including our heartbeat and breathing introduce tensions into our musculature.  To be relaxed, we must always be in motion, expressing the naturally occuring tension stream, dissipation maintaining the cool of our calm in the constant flow of living waves.

Expressing simple concepts can make me sound so deep.  Life is contradiction.

I feel like the children fully understand why I am no longer living with them.  Now I have the sense that they are put out that I didn't take them with me, save them from the insanities of their mother.  This has become my deepest regret, that I didn't recognize her incapacity and take appropriate steps to get her helped.  We'll probably file the action to reconsider custody soon.  Balancing the cost of the battle with the cost of letting her abuse the children with her instability is a very tricky calculation.  I can be criticized, no matter what action I take.  The well-being of the children is all that matters.

Responsibility can be such a heavy burden.  All I can do is the best I can do.  I yam a yam.

Malinov
 

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